Tuesday, July 14, 2009

False Alarm

I haven't blogged in over a week because I am royally pissed off. I had a false alarm over the weekend. I tested on peak +15 and got a quite strong line. I thought this might be down to residual hcg in my system from the pregnyl injections, so didn't get too excited. I tested again the following day and the line was still there, but weaker. So I thought ok, it's not happening.

Being the POAS addict that I am, I decided to give it one last test on Friday, peak +17. By this stage there shouldn't have been a sniff of hcg left in my system. I got a very faint positive. I went out and bought a double pack of digital tests. Tested again and got a "Pregnant 1-2". I still felt a wee bit sceptical about it, as I was feeling crampy, but then I have heard stories of women getting severe period like pains and then discovering that they are in fact pregnant. I phoned the clinic in Galway and they told me to get a blood test done to check progesterone and oestradiol levels, and start on progesterone support immediately.

This I did, but the following day something at the back of my mind was still making me feel doubtful, so I tested again. Not pregnant. I got another double pack of digital tests from the pharmacy (I'm so going to get a good dividend this year!) and tested again on Sunday and Monday morning. Both not pregnant. So there you are, false alarm. I rang the clinic back and told them, the doctor said it sounds like a false alarm alright, and to discontinue the progesterone support. I said my period was unusually late, but he said that is down to the synthetic progesterone in my system. So basically synthetic hcg remained in my system, temporarily fooling me into thinking I was pregnant, and now synthetic progesterone has fucked up my cycle and delayed my period.

My head is fucking melted. I hate all this.

8 comments:

Feebee said...

Oh Jane, I'm so sorry. That is so headwrecking and disappointing and devastating and just crap.

diaryofamiracle said...

Really really sorry to hear this - you had been on my mind all last week....
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Xbox4NappyRash said...

That is absolutely gutting.

I'm truly sorry.

Kim said...

Jesus, how awful. Jane, I'm so sorry.

Paint it Black said...

crap x 1000000. suckola. wat a mind fuck. im sorry false hope is the worst.

nutsinmay said...

OK, now that sucks. I think my mind is melting in sympathy. Because, did I mention I think the situation sucks? I am so sorry, Jane. Hugs.

Sarah said...

Oh sweetie. I'm sorry.

Jane G said...

Thanks to you all for your comments. I was in such crap form last week that I wasn't up to replying to anyone. Thanks for being there as always xx